☆せいらちゃっヾ(≧∇≦*)〃☆

kirua is a bitch

2008-11-04T20:38:00.002+07:00

thats why I do hate germany!

fuck you bitch!!!

whats my weakness? Ive done everything for you! and you messed it up less than 48 hours!!!
and say that I have no friend? YOU ARE THE ONE WHO NEVER HAS FRIEND AS NICE AS MINE!

even I spend 60.000 IDR in 2 nights only for him!!!!!

and cause Im sick writing it over the whole story... [ive told ruui, kana, ncong, pup, hcchn], I dont want to waste my time to write it over here again, so yeah~

and I delete my all accounts in myspace, including my real page

pshhh... entar gue bikin rp baru, tenang aja >D
entar ceritanya gue ama mpup jadi pasangan gei lol

mwahahahhaha... kesenangan gue mungkin akan berubah

bye bye eek XD

i need to change my phone number, there are so many roleplayers know it DDD:
m3 perhaps? XD

what a nice

2008-11-03T13:42:00.002+07:00

takeru gue baru aja jadian sama anaknya ray [ehem..], dia dah change macem2 en kmaren smpet jadi tara [jujur gue enggak demen tara XD;;] tapi kmaren dia dah change lage jadi kirua. GUE DEMEN KIRUA JADI GUE SAMBER AJA LOL

yawda kan jadian... gue act really really gentle!!! xDD and gue ngakak spanjang malem soalnye takeru itu /BUKAN GUE BANGET/.. soalnya itu tuh sosok edward, orang yang nyium pasangannya carefully, terus nolak esek, lalu cuddling mulu.. mwahahahahah -sarap-

terus out of my expectation yeh... scara dia jerman ye gue remehin donk -ditimpuk- tapi ternyata dia.... ITUnya bagus sodara2!!!! RAY!!! I WONT LET THIS ONE GO FROM ME! THANK YOU GOD LOL -gila beneran-

gue sndiri kalah.. karna gue dah lama enggak begini, biasanya bertele2 doank biar panjang, gue ampe stres o__o
aahh~~ udah lama enggak dapet yang pinter~~ -tendang yoemie jaoh2- xD

nah yawda, cukup de xD
masalahnya muncul abis itu.. si kirua ini ngmg ke takeru gue klo ada cowok yang ngincer dia namanya mashiro, si mashiro ini teasing dia molo supaya cheating over gue, sadlynye kiruanya keukeuh mao ama gue..

terus si mashiro mesej gue, dia bilang dia naksir real the person behind kirua o3o yah gue kaget lah.. tapi katanya kiruanya ignoringin dia gitu
gue bilang aja yah serah dia mao maen sama playernya kirua, orang yang gue demen kiruanya kog .__. tapi yah jadinya maennya yang fair donk, jangan karna dia demen sama orang di balik kiruanya dia ngetease2 cowok gue. biar gimanapun orang kirua cowok gue, iya gka? >_> klo dia macem2 yah urusannya sama gue
tapi dia bilang katanya jangan ngancem2 dia soalnya walo dia kliatannya cute, dia bisa jadi bad. dia bilang dia kan masih jadi petnya kirua jadi tentu aja dia masih ada chance

eek lo!!

sini adepan sama gue! tapi jangan adu pisik, gue kan asian elo bule lol

kog sok sii tuh orang. gak nyadar yah posisi dia.. aaaa.. rayyy... onlen donk ;__; mao curhat

rebek is a bitch

2008-11-02T18:14:00.002+07:00

eek kan ;___;
setelah sekian lama gue enggak maen rp pake filing gue.. akhirnya gue nemuin seorang ruki, US.. -ehem- yang seriously kata2nya mirip sama aiji [you know lah aiji sapa, en iya chan, gue gila xD; ]

and then after that yah gue pedekate abis2an donk sejak dia putus sama rikyugi [artiin sndiri] nya si rebek.. terus tadi gue tembak tapi ditolak, en ternyata dia nyangka gue set up ini smua gara2 gue temennye taro >.>
lah orang touya sama taro kaga kenal.. ngmg juga enggak. yang ada kan seira sama bebek, yah gak? lol
terus yah gitu.. si rebeknya ngmg ke bebek klo dia mao delet beberapa ekonnya biar bisa punya waktu lbih bwt maen sama si ruki
yah buat gue itu kan kayak mentang2 si rukinya ditembak dia enggak mao maenannya diambil, padahal kan dah gak ada hubungan apa2. taik lo, dasar tante2 33 taon >3<

capek gue maen pake ati di rp, mendingan gue cari yang having fun aja macem maen sama yumi .__. ato maen di ekon multi gue [ntuh lho, si sisen >_>] yang jelas2 gue enggak bakalan disakitin, malahan nyakitin orang >D

dah ahhhh~

maapkan diriku bebek T__T

IMPORTANT

2008-10-25T09:59:00.000+07:00

I want to take an university outside from my country, indonesia

But I still don't know which one I pick

I need an uni which is :
- not so expensive [international student's tuition is like a hell xD;]
- quite good
- allow their students to take a part time
- located in a good place with not so expensive living cost
- using english, if its not, at least we get 1 year for learning the language
- it will be more good if there's scholarship also
- not in UK, because UK's english is really hard!!! XD

can you guys give me some uni's that you know? D:
please!!! >___<
I really need it

I already have some options anyway :
SFSU [san fransisco state university] - CA
nan yang university - singapore
UC Berkeley - CA
ritsumeikan university - Japan
Kyungsung university - korea

again, pleaseeeeeee~

please, for people who think that I'm their friend

2008-10-24T20:58:00.002+07:00

please.. dont leave me alone
I know I'm not perfect
I know I'm not good enough
I know I'm not the most caring
I know I'm not only your best friend
I know I'm not someone that you will cry for
I know I'm not the one who will always be your side whenever you need me

but I beg to you, don't leave me. I do love all of you, but I feel that everyone has gone slowly but surely

I feel alone, the pain comes and stabs my heart so bad
I do want to be a good friend. But I know I am not. I never be good enough for you
I know that I'm not real nice. I just pretend to be nice. So you all won't be mad and stay away from me

to be honest, I'm envy with people that can show theirself completely with their friends and their friends can accept it, even like it
I am not able..

never

I'm afraid that when I show you my bad side, you will hate me. you will disgust me, you will go away from me. or even you will break our friendship
I stand with pain for so long, I just want to have a true friend. but why is it so hard?
why my sacrifices is not being worthed? and how come you replied it with yell and curse?
what did I do?

-sighs deeply-

I just need, someone who think, that I am here. I am not someone that you only can have fun with. I am also a human. who has emotion as well like you do
so please, treat me at least a little bit more nice
and feel
that I'm breath
in this world

>>> I will be better soon, don't worry. I'm just in emo mood

O____O;;;

2008-10-23T21:21:00.003+07:00

moso yah... kan gue tadi sama adek gue gue lage nyanyi2 suju geje gitu, sambil dancing tentunya LOL terusan gue unjukin mukanya anak2 suju, enyak gue komen deh. terusan akhirnya sampe ke poto ituk, tau gak enyak gue ngmg apa? [gakk..]

ini yah ituk :

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"Yang itu mirip sama asuk lho.. -nunjuk foto ituk-"

PERHATIKAN BAIK2 SAUDARA2!!! -histeris-
yang jlas bwt gue sii, sama skali gak mirip. soale buat gue ituk itu dewa ganteng, en asun itu.. -coughsssss...-
but, mata enyak gw itu emank lihai dalam milih orang [walo gue takut dia udah katarakan because of this case lol]
jadi, yah... buat yang pnasaran, yawda anggep aja muka cowok gue = muka ituk [walo gue sangsi klo gue kog bisa yah dapet cowok scakep ntuh? xD;]

emank sii, sama2 cina [korea dink lol]. sipit dah nyebutnye xD terus sama2 putih en kurus, rambutnya juga jabrik geje. sayangnya ituk mancung <333333333 en ITUK ITU MANISSSSS!!!!! -digampar- xD

I love eeteuk oppa <333 saranghaeeeeeeee -histeris lagi-

fragrances

2008-10-22T19:38:00.003+07:00

mom bought these for me X3
it's escada, kenzo, and bvlgari. there's a louis vuitton also that she planned to buy but she told me the fragrance's smell wasn't that good. but I'm happyyy :3

and anyway, I'm chasing a ruki from U.S lol
his words are really look like aiji ,__,
and also because of bebek, I decided that I would date him no matter what!!! lol
wismilak 8Dv

mommyyyyyyyy ;A;

2008-10-21T18:48:00.002+07:00

shit, I need entertainment!
I wanna hang out with my friends
I wanna do cosplay again
I wanna go to japanese events
I wanna meet MY FRIENDSSSSSSSSSSSS ;A;

apa sii salah gue benernya? cuman gara2 nilai rapor knaekan kelas gue kmaren knapa ampe skarang gue enggak dikasih bebas kemana2 slaen ke gading en rumah sodara gue?? emank apa hubungannya? gue kangen sama temen2 gue. udah lama banget enggak ketemu, dan pas ngeliat foto2 mereka lage kumpul bareng, to be honest, yes I do envy with them |: knapa sii? padahal bokab gue kerjaannya bolak balik ke selatan mulu. maennya di sekitaran pim sama ex sono. emank ngapa klo gue ditaro disana bentaran aja? 3 jem juga gue balik kog >.>

terus kenapa gara2 gue udah punya cowok gue mesti pentingin tuh eek duluan daripada temen2 yang lebih gue sayang? emanknya salah apa klo weekend gue mao spending sama temen2 gue, huh??? ]:
gue willing kog jalan sama temen2 dia, walo ada yang gue enggak kenal. tapi kenapa klo gue ajak jalan sama temen gue dia nolak, walo alus tetep aja .__.
bilang enggak enaklah, enggak kenal-lah. lah gue?? dia bawa temen2nya segerombolan cowok, en gue cewek sndirian. tapi gue tetep masih rela2in >_>
bete gue, tau gitu kan enggak usah jadian aja. pusing >_____>;;; -i hope he wouldnt read this blog- lol
mana enyak gue cerewet banget lage. klo gue ada waktu en bokap udah rela mao nganter ke pim, dia yang ngekang gue supaya stay di gading sama cowok gue. katanya, "kamu kan udah ada cowok, jangan maen terus sama temen2 kamu"

HOLISIT TAU GAKKKKKKKKKK >A<
I need friends more than everything, and honestly I don't liebe him at all ]: I just want to get fun with him. but he cant give me that fun. though different with bule gila's case, cause I did love him so I didn't ask him to give me more happiness. but different now!!!!!!

mendingan gue maen sama yumi daripada sama die >A<;;;
aaaaaaaaa...... ;________;

gue mao jalan2. gue mao traktiran. gue mao ntn bareng lage. gue mao cosu. gue mao gibah rp en alines. yang jelas, I GET BORED WITH GADING AND MY FUCKIN LIFE RIGHT NOWWWW ;A;

klo bisa nangis gue nangis deh ]:

miss you guys,
yang nyelametin gue ultah, premiere twilight ntn bareng yuk. gw traktir? x3

korea

2008-10-19T20:50:00.002+07:00

today, my mom asked me about where we would go this december as a vacation. I and my brother surely answered /korea/, cause we wanted to meet suju lol
and unexpectedly, my mom said, "alright. let's see"

o_____O i thought she would say, "no, its too expensive" or something like that. but, the answer showed me that there was a possible to go to korea right? o__O

and well -coughs- i, can't speak korea at all. if you ask me to speak in chinese or english, i can. but not koreaaa >_<;; i just a fan of korea for less than 2 months. so i just knew something like mianhee, saranghae, and kamsahamida. THATS ALL O__O
and though i went to korea, i think i cant go to suju's performance cause its really hard to go to korea alone if youre a tourist, right?
so that;s why, i really want to have a korea friend who live in there, and also love suju. so it will make me easier to go to suju and meet them 8D

is there anyone who has korean friends? DDD:
i need it, really >_<
all korea that i know is in united states TwT;;

new cell and new hoodie

2008-10-18T20:46:00.002+07:00

cause my motorola had broken, [yes i did give it to motorola service but it was such a waste cause they couldnt repair it at all]. i decided to buy a new cell. at first my mom asked me to buy n81 or n82 cause its a new phone, but i rejected it because the camera wasnt like i want. so when i thought so hard about what my new cell would be, i remembered my friends [amei, gio, kana, anchi, and others who bought a sony]
so thats, i already have had a new w830i [am i wrong? 8D;;]
its purple X3333
looks good, but sadly im still gaptek using it lol

and i went to mangga dua today, i bought new hoodie ;3
thats new photo anyway 8D haha~

new earing

2008-10-18T20:40:00.002+07:00

I bought new earing, which was come at thursday with my super show [super junior concert]. it was eeteuk's earing, looks cool right? XD
and i dont /tindik/ my ear, no no. . i just sticked it on that lol

I WINNNNN XDDD

2008-10-11T22:13:00.002+07:00

2nd place cutest asian girl at wonderasian xD
with 161 votes lol

thats pretty cool!!!

and this is the pic that I used xD
http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vdmlld21vcmVwaWNzLm15c3BhY2UuY29tL2luZGV4LmNmbT9mdXNlYWN0aW9uPXZpZXdJbWFnZSZmcmllbmRJRD0zOTE1NzgzNjEmYWxidW1JRD03MTI5MDYmaW1hZ2VJRD0xMzIyNzkzMA==

thanks to hime, she helped me picking the pic <3

and this is the 1st winner
http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vdmlld21vcmVwaWNzLm15c3BhY2UuY29tL2luZGV4LmNmbT9mdXNlYWN0aW9uPXZpZXdJbWFnZSZmcmllbmRJRD0zOTE1NzgzNjEmYWxidW1JRD03MTI5MDMmaW1hZ2VJRD0xMzM5NjU1NA==

very cute o_o

nyomot quiz bebek

2008-10-11T11:22:00.002+07:00

yang katanya dikasih tau cumi, so i tried it to to myself. walo itu site buat agama yah? yo wes ggpapa lah yah xD

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stidaknya gue mahsyur, jenis, dan kuat 8D;;;

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ah tapi, apalah arti sbuah nama deh xD
dadah 8D

berliannnnnnnn ;A;

2008-10-09T22:33:00.002+07:00

moso moso.. ari ini koko gue yang di sidni putus :3
awal2nye dia kayak bete2 gtu, yawda gue diemin, terus dia cerita kayake dia mao putus. yah gue cheering him up lah, bilang jangan putus lah, apalah [sok baek]. tapi dia nekat putus. yawda kan ya, bukan urusan gue

terus dia bilang, dia blon kasih kalung berlian yang udah dia beli buat ceweknye. niatnya kan akhir taon dia baru mao kaseh pas kabur ke cina. terus dia malah nawarin gue, buat elo aja ama cowok elo. kalungnya kan tuh sepasang gitu, berlian, mahallllllll, cakep banget pula. terus gue yang sok2 nolak gitu, bilang jangan soale terlalu mahal. dia maksa soale dia gak tau mao kasih ke sapa lage [sbenernya caranya gampang, JUAL AJA DODOL XD] yah gue mao!!! cuman gue kan tetep matre bertopeng 1000 XDDD

akhirnya gue enggak dapet berliannye, enyak gue goblok2in gue ;A;
ada yang tau gak caranya supaya gue dapet? LOL

suju

2008-10-04T21:17:00.002+07:00

aduh, stres gue T__T;;
masalah antingnya si ituk juga.. lobang gue cuman satu, tapi itu ternyata musti berlobang dua... gw gak mungkin tindik lage, smentara yang spasang ini aja udah mao rapet >A< -paling males pake anting-
aahh.. knapa juga sii gue beli yang itu, padahal ada yang laen yang lbih murah T_T begooo

terus dvdnya, gue takut enggak nyampe >A< secara kan gue sndiri juga ENGGAK YAKIN alamat gue yang bener dimana o__o;;; jalannya gue tau, nah NOMERNYE??? orang itu apartemen ;A;
terus gue takut klo slah masuk tower ato gmana >__<;;
ato ditilep ama sekuriti.. ato sekuriti apartemen gue lage enggak ada di sono, terus jadinya engga ada yang ngambil, barang gue ilang deh, sumpah gue takut T___T

but anyway, tanggal 2 kmaren dvd suju yang super show dah rilis :3
terus kmaren dah dikirim, beserta anting ituknye

aduh Tuhan, tolong dong disampein >_<
amin

bgm > rokugo - suju T

ah bete

2008-10-04T11:46:00.002+07:00

lazy to write in english, so here you go, indonesia people~

dari tadi gue juga udah enggak mao pgi.. cuman dipaksa enyak ke TA. katanya entar diajak juga makan di jw mariot klo smpet. yawda gue siap2 mandi aja kan ye, scara kangen sama tuh hotel :/

terus sblon gue mandi, bokab gue ngmg, klo tantenya dia kan kmaren2 dateng gitu dari makassar, terus mao minta dianter jalan2 keliling jakarta, soale besok dia udah balik. nah itu nenek2 sama anak2 en cucu2nye rombongan gitu. gila aje, apv gue mana muat Dx terus minta dijemput di cibubur, dianter ke apartemen gue dolo di gading, terus ke mangdu, baru ke cibubur lage, baru gw pulang ke gading. ANJRIT banget Dx die kate bkb gue sopir apean. bkb gue mao aja lage, katanya gak enak
padahal klo gue ke satu tmpat aja, ke PIM, gue diomelin, katanya bbm naek. skarang jaoan mana sii ama cibubur, HAAHH??? >A<;;
gue udah bete, tapi gue diem aja, daripada disemprul

eh tau2nya mereka maonya ke mangga dua square. ADA APAAN EMANKNYE DISONO HUH???!!! DX enakan juga ke TA, kan ada toko sushi sama hegendes >3<
banyak cogan pula. mangdu ari sabtu, sarap kale Dx

gue stay diem aja.. akhirnya bet recover piling, gue ama adek gue joget2 pajama party en U ._.
terus pas gue slese mandi, gue tanya enyak, bokab kmana. ktanya udah jalan ke cibubur, jemput tuh sodara eek :/
en karna katanya mobil gue enggak muat, gue bertigaan sama enyak en adek gue, disuruh naek taksi sndiri ke TA. BEGO!!! suruh tantenye aja yang naek taksi ngape?????

taik ah, gue jadi makin males pergi kan
bego..
gue kutuk tuh kluarga >A<
biar kutilan ama kurapan satu badan, terus lobang idungnya jadi gede. eek lo!

gue yakin nii, entar makan siang sama makan malem bkb gue yang bayar, bensinnya juga. cucu2nya tantenye terus klo mao apa pasti dibliin. duit lage duit lage. mendingan bwt gue kan..

apalage gue salah beli anting >A<;;
itu tindikannya 2!!! gue cuman satu!
moso gue tindik? gak boleh sama enyak ;3; klo tindik sndiri, gue takut >A<>A<

aaaa... beteee

main photo!!! xD

2008-10-02T19:58:00.001+07:00

photo with leopard!!!
I was shiver and shudder!!! lol

safari park

2008-10-02T19:44:00.002+07:00

I went to Safari Park Indonesia.. dengan gaya slengean enggak jelas xD

and the most wonderful thing, I saw bears MAKING LOVE!!!! LOL

terus naek onta [enggak tau inggrisnye apean xD]

this orang utan also showed me his(?) butt as well. haha. sexy butt <3 xD
after that I was feed elephants X33

went to puncak

2008-10-02T11:37:00.003+07:00

with my cousins and family :DDDDDD

and we ate sate and goat's soup @///////@U
its really delicious 8Dv

160908

2008-09-17T21:25:00.002+07:00

since that time, I have been together with.. someone -coughs-
named asun... I bet you guys known him already >_<;;;

its because of bella and sean :/ they told me to give him a chance cause he sounds perfect, and to make me forget about well... you know who xD

so I give him a try and so here we are..
but seriously, I feel nothing..
he is the only one whose feel happy for this relationship .__.
but sean told me that he really wanted me to feel happy so alright, obeying him as well ._.
I hope I can.. perhaps

tho he's really a good guy also, and understands me so much..
well, for sean, he's perfect. I dont know o__o;;

at least. good bye my loneliness :333

MATEK AJA DAH GUE

2008-09-14T21:59:00.002+07:00

kan... player baru gue, si takeru2 onoh yang dikasih ekonnya sama pup, naksir gitu sama satu cowok. namanya ray..

terus si ray itu entah ngape suka nyium2 gue. udah tau gue itu kan mantan(?) jablay jadi yah gue tetep ada napsu nyosor. si ray-nya dah dibilangin berapa kali juga tetep aje nyiumin takeru gue

mana dia itu top prennya si sakaki lage, tambah bete gue

terus tadi dia ngmg, dia demen sama sakaki.. gue syok aja gitu. scara sakaki kan si yumi, yumi yah entuh pacar gue kan di shou.. terus gue ngmg ke ray gue pacar nya dia di his other account. terusan dia tanya, are you shou? heeh gue jawab.. terus dia langsung berswt dan dia bilang"ini gue hacchan"

GUE SERANGAN JANTUNGGGGG

HAMPIR AJA GUE RETARD AMA TEMEN BAEK GUE SENDIRIIIIIIIIIIIIII

;___________________;

yoloh... puasa bok puasa.. fasting!!! [kayak gue puasa aja]
gila gue kaget...
HAMPIR AJA GUE MELAKUKAN PERBUATAN NISTA TAU GAK SIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ;___;
ITU SAMA TEMEN SENDIRI BOKKK!!!! Ketemu misiel aja gue bisa kaget apalage ketemu hacchan... GUA MATEKKK

AAAAAA

RAY SIALAN ;A;

present 2

2008-09-14T19:40:00.001+07:00

this bag was from my mom.. and dad only gave me money :3

present

2008-09-14T19:36:00.001+07:00

this shirt was from my friends :3

mereka patungan bwt beli neh kaos en kue xD

dijeburin

2008-09-14T19:31:00.002+07:00

then we went to my apartment. a friend of mine told me that he wanted to take photos in my pool so we went to there after I had put some make up

unexpectedly, after arrived till there they pushed me to the pool >____<;;;;
I CANT SWIM ;____;

well, however after that we pushed each other till everybody got wet xDDD
it's really fun :333

party with friends

2008-09-14T13:14:00.002+07:00

and yesterday, I had a part with my friends. 14 friends xD
and cause a friend of mine named Stevie had birthday nearly with me, we celebrated it together :3
they bought us a white chocolate cake again xDDDDD <333
aahahaha... that's a cute cake, wasnt it?
thanks friends. loph ya <3

the night

2008-09-14T13:08:00.001+07:00

I had a dinner to celebrate my birthday with my big family in singapore restaurant. that was my picture with my very very closer cousin, S-chan :3
she looked prettier than me xD;;

my birthday

2008-09-14T11:18:00.002+07:00

12th september night, my parents wanted to make a surprise for me by buying this cake.. but sadly I already knew it xDDD
but anyway, thats a delicious cake. my parents knew that I didnt like mocca, chocolate, and tiramisu so they worked very hard to find a white chocolate tart. that's super extra delicious <33

thanks mom, dad.. loph ya ♥

my new apartment

2008-09-11T20:10:00.002+07:00

I just moved [again] into a new apartment. I rent this apartment for a year, but I dont know will it be last long or not xD perhaps if I like living in here, I will spend my high school time in here 8D

I have no time to take the pic of it because there are still many boxes in living room ><;;
gonna post the photo later 8D

blahh~~

2008-09-11T19:49:00.003+07:00

for this 16th birthday :/
it's a thing that I was waiting for in a long time but when it almost come, it is really.. simple thing :/

even I have had a lot of problems with some persons..
such as my EX-friend.. MELON DX she's a liar one X/
and then also with my mom..
not forget with /anak gaul hocimin/ .___.

-sighs deeply-

stressful... tiring.. meaningless..

nowadays I feel empty so badly. without anything that I really want or will to do or to gain

well, I had already planned to make a party in a pizza restaurant with my high school's student, they already will to buy me presents and expensive cake, and also we will hang out till night in this saturday night, but it's still feeling empty ._.

though I know I shouldn't feel like this because it means I don't appreciate them, but I need one thing

I wanna /him/ -coughs- to text me and say, "happy birthday, I loveD you"
but that's impossible, isn't it? -laughs bitterly-
tho I believe he doesnt even know when my birthday is. I'm sure -nodnod-

I wanna a loveeeeeee... I need it.... Dx

new hair

2008-09-11T19:41:00.002+07:00

because my mother wasnt give me money this birthday, I asked her to cut my hair at toni and guy's salon... and so, here the picture

cat coklatnya lunturrrr >A<

back

front

sogo

2008-09-07T17:32:00.002+07:00

after that, my shopping lust appeared again XDDD
so when the cold stone was finish, I forced my parents to go to SOGO 8D;;
and then, I bought it. 2 eyeliners from borjouis [purple and blue] and a mascara from revlon. in fact I wanna maybelline, but mom doesnt like it D:
well, kinda expensive but its worthy <3

oh yeah, after that I went to Johnny Andrean salon, doing creambath 8Dv
hahahaha, days with wasting parent's money is really worthless but full of happiness LOL

cold stone

2008-09-07T17:26:00.002+07:00

is delicious!! 8Dv
this morning involuntary I saw Oprah's show and it talked about cold stone. so I was remembered that it was just opened in kelapa gading mall a while ago. so I dragged my parents to go along with me [yes my brother also] and then we tried it :3
and surprisingly, it's very expensive =A=''

I thought the price was similar like baskin or haagen but it almost twice >_<
but well, lust lost price 8D;;

we bought two.. strawberry blablabla and cheesecake blablabla lol
its delicious >w< you guys should try it also next time if youre able :D

that BENCONG teacher DDDx

2008-09-04T15:24:00.002+07:00

my geography teacher, Mr.Joko punched my right back hardly today. without any reason!!!

well, so the story is :
another teacher asked me to buy a new skirt in school's because she thought that my skirt is too short. so I obeyed her and in my geographic class, then another teacher [Mr.Bambang] came to my class to check whether I had already bought it or not. so I moved in front of the class to show him my new long skirt.. and he made a pose like he slapped me, but it was only a joke, obviously

but Mr.Joko suddenly punched my right back hardly when I didn't look at him >_>
after that he gripped my right arm so tight till it got reddish .__. I pulled my arm away from him and almost kicked him. But I know the position, he's a teacher and I'm a student. I would have no chance to win against him

so after school getting over, I told my dad about this and he was really angry about it. he walked and approached my teacher, ready to punching him back. but well, do you know, Mr. Joko is a /bencong/, means he is a FEMININE guy xDD you know what I mean lol
so my dad was disgusted by him. he didn't do anything just lectured Mr.Joko to not doing it again. my mom? held her laugh as well when seeing my dad's reaction and Mr.Joko's femininity xD

well, it's over yeah. but I still feel a little mad at him =A= because what he did to me is never be done by my dad!!! who he is till he is able or has right to punch me??
he doesn't gimme anything .__.

am I right? or wrong? D:

gonna be older soon

2008-09-02T22:29:00.002+07:00

12 days again Im gonna be 16. yay? not so happy for this birthday this year. haha
first because I can't celebrate it with my cosplay and internet friends in PIM like I used to because of 1 or 2 reason(s)

and second, its because Im getting older. I wanna be always young!!! xD seriously, who likes to be an old one?

and third *sighs* it's because HE cant celebrate with me. I bet you know who is HIM.. it's my ex, robert
I had thought since last year that Id celebrate it with him.. this year.. I wanna him call me and say "happy birthday, Ily" only that. I dont need he comes to me then hugs me [though I want but it's almost impossible], I just need he was with me in my 16th birthday.. I just wanted him to hug me in MSN and kiss me softly like he used to be..

*sighs*

I always tell myself. at least keep the relationship till my birthday, but I just cant hold my mind and feeling. you guys know, I always do anything without thinking >_> my weakness -A-;

and well, this year.. without him *chuckles bitterly*
tho Im going to not meet him anymore, have no chance at all. He wont read this page or try to contact me also.. so well, it's useless to be thinking about him anymore. But it just suddenly came up from my mind. A miss feeling

.____________.

and anyway, I havent done anything for about 16th years in my life. Havent done anything that can make my parents be proud of me, or done anything useful for my future. nothing..
I hope after being a 16th, I can be a more mature girl. and I can forget him completely..
Though that, seriously, this birthday seem will be a bored and blank one.. because nothing is important

well, move on /ME/!!! :3

putus =__=

2008-08-20T19:15:00.002+07:00

gak pernah gue pacaran putus secepet ini yahampun...
gue diputusin cel .__.

gile gile.. -godek2 kpala-
katanya dia keinget gitu sama mantan exnya. terus sperti biasa yah, klo orang mao putus pasti slalu ngmg "elo terlalu baek buat gue".. bego .____.
putus deh, haha...

yawda ah.. bego lo cel, kapan lage elo dapet cowok baek kayak gue, gue tuh di taya udah kaga pernah suka ngesek lage kayak dulu. terus gue tuh udah usahain onlen tiap ari tiap waktu, pulsa gue udah kebuang brapa banyak itu buat diaaaaa >_< [though enggak sbanyak buat si bule kampret itu sii]

tapi kapan lage sii. punya cowok yang ready elo ajak esek? punya cowok yang stia mampus ama lo? punya cowok yang bisa gitu kaseh dia sgala yang dia mao... begoooooo ;A;

denger cel, gue tuh ampe udah jarang ikut les di wolstrit buat siapa?? soale tiap sore ampe tengah malem tuh gue mesti nemenin elo esekan en mesra2an!!!! elo bilang elo kaga bisa misahin real ama rp,. yah kaga usah maen rp klo gituuu... cari aja pacar beneran sono! kelewat baek apa sii gue ama eloooo??????

yawda, skarang gue udah bisa tenang. gue bisa ikut les, bisa ikut pitnes, ama tidur siang lage. kaga usah gue pas lage kerja sama bokab gue, gue bentar2 ngebales cetingan elo. apa salah gue??/ gue udah lebih baek ke elo daripada ama ke kazuyaaa ;A;

pup, bebekm if you read this blog, lets make a group "anti sel ina!!!!"

buleeeeeeeeeeeee <3

2008-08-20T18:55:00.002+07:00

so yeah, I found a BULE GANTENG in my institute *__________*

his name is Patrick *coughs* yes, the starfish lol but seriously, he's very handsome. when he was interviewing me and testing me about my unit in wall street, I couldn't help, I only could stare his blue eyes... almost melt *melts now* xD

aaaaaa.... tomorrow and the day after tomorrow I have a class again in institute. hope I can meet him. well maybe tomorrow I cant speak with him, but the next day I hope he would teach me in speaking class. pray for me please frienddddssss <33333

XDD IN LOPH LOL

study abroad

2008-08-19T22:17:00.002+07:00

smua pergi ninggalin gue .___.

kana pergi ikut AFS
mpon di taiwan
amei mao ke cina
cindy ke taiwan nyusul mpon
henry juga ke sydney

sapa lage yang belon kesebut namanya? -sighs-

lama2 smua temen baek gue pergi smua ke luar, en tinggalin gue di indo, alone .__.

gue dari dulu, dari smp juga udah ngotot ama nyokab gue bwt pergi ke luar, kemana aja, tapi dia kaga pernah kaseh. alesannya tuh macem2... tapi padahal dia cuman kaga mau gue pergi jauh2 dari dia, dia terlalu operprotektip =3=;

ampe gue kuliah pun dia kaga bakalan kaseh gue pergi, padahal bwt pergi ke luar sana itu adalah cita2 gue banget.. gue pengen belajar bahasa en menjelajah dunia gitu. enggak cuman di indo aja... tapi yah itu kendalanya, tanpa ijin enyak mana mungkin dikasih -sighs-

gue mao kluar, tapi gimana yah ._.

akhirnya skarang, gue sama si ajep udah mutusin ikut scholarship ke europe ato amrik, buat kuliah. kita bakalan pergi bareng :D
doakan sayah yah teman2 n__n

aaaa.. akusalah..D:

2008-08-11T22:02:00.003+07:00

si cel bilang katanya nunggu 1-2ari dulu sblon jadian opisial T-T

ah bego ah.. gue yang bego, bukan dia xDDD
yah serahlah.. sbodo amat gue. yang penting gue ada kerjaan gitu klo pas maen di taya lol

moon maap atas kesalahpahaman khilap ini xD

yeeeeyy

2008-08-11T21:06:00.002+07:00

taya gw dapet pacar baru.. si cel ;333333
jadi sakaki die xD

yah, taya gue juga dari dolo demen ama dia, compared him with si jermani gemblung kaga tau terima kaseh itu, jelas dia itu much better D:

*celingak celinguk* kaga ada lupin kan ye xD entar tau2nya gw diaduin juga kayak si pup en bebek. awas aja lo D8 gue lempar ke kali ciliwung lho xDDD *sadis mode on*

terus kayake pup n hcchn syok gitu ye taya ama sakaki jadian lol yah, gimana donk. gue kebelet punya cowok benerrrr T___T;;
satu2nya cowok gue satu lage kan cuman si juneddddddddddddddddddddd D:
tega apa lo pada ninggalin gue sama seorang jablay bgono [kayak sndiri gak lol]

yawda ah.. gue capek.. laptop gue juga dipakein molo ama bokab, gue dari tadi mao pacaran jadi gak bsa deh xD

deeee ;3

-- ada yang punya movienya suju gakk??? gue maoooo >_<

100th post

2008-08-09T01:36:00.002+07:00

waow! it surprised me a lot when realizing that I reached 100th post today ;3 its been a long time since I used this blog. my longest blog yeay ;D

congratulations for me XDDDD~

so in this entry, I will give you guys some good words that I love the most. but because I have it in indonesian words, I will try my best to translateit into english xD

What is the meaning of love?
-If your palms get sweat, your heart beats faster, get speechless, it's not a LOVE but LIKE

-If your hands cant stop to touch or hold him/her, it's not a LOVE but LUST

-If you want him/her because you know that he/she will be there for you, it's not a LOVE but LONELY

-If you accept him/her because you dont want to hurt him/her feeling, it's not a LOVE but PITY

-If you are willing to give anything that you like for him/her, it's not a LOVE but KINDNESS

-If you are proud of him/her and always want to show him/her to everyone, it's not a LOVE but LUCKINESS

-If you say that he/she is the one that you think the most, it's not a LOVE but CONCEITED

-you LOVE him/her, when you accept his/her failure. because its a part of his/her character. when youre willing to give your heart, your life, even your death. you feel hurt when he/she is being sad and feel the spring when he/she is being happy. you cry for his/her pain though he/she is strong enough to face them. when you're feeling interested by other persons but you still be faithfull over him/her

quite good eh? I like it so much.. and seriously, now I can speak about this one without lying

I've already been able to forget you and our memories together.. I will find my another happiness. good bye :)

wall street

2008-08-09T01:33:00.001+07:00

for a purpose to have cowok ganteng yang kaya en pinter, I decided to join wallstreet, an english institute. its really expensive D: but for fulfill my dream, Im willing to xD [kayak gue aja yang bayar lol]

anyway, kata orangnya grade gue cukup tinggi,upper waystage 3, well,gue seh gak mrasa itu cukup tinggi. scara gue maonya pas di tes gue bener smua [ngarep]
tpi yawdalah xD temen gue kaga ada yang les di sono neh T_T ada yang temenin gue donk D;

new laptop

2008-08-09T01:28:00.001+07:00

finally Ive a new laptop now 8D Im kinda weird using this one,since I have used to with my old computer for about 6 years xD

well anyway, this one is the touch screen one, I'm kinda shock cause my Dad decided to buy this expensive laptop O_o;; but whatever. I dont waste any money for it anyway lol

In love with suju <3

behel

2008-07-29T23:21:00.001+07:00

I used purple rotten teeth 8DDDDDD
its me, grinning LOL

sean

2008-07-16T20:26:00.007+07:00

I wanna kick a girl from sydney DDD: well, I dunno what her name is, but she is my brother's gf [well, he is not my real sibling though.. only play from internet]
my brother sean told me yesterday that her gf had a feeling toward another guy where she did overseas. and it really pissed me off :/

she played with my friend's feeling and I dont like it, at all! and I dont know is my brother toooo nice or tooo stupid, he still gave his gf some times to think it again well =___=;; also when I cursed her gf and told him how much I didn't like her because of that, he was still calm and defended his gf, though that I know well how hurt he is .__.

she is too stupid to neglect someone awesome like my bro!!!!! =_=;;
my bro is handsome enough [well, pretty maybe?], he is studying in a good university in sydney, he is tall and strong, his family economic is great. he loves her gf so much. also, he is the one who will never cheat!
so I call his gf very BAKA!!! -___-;;

my bro was very very sad yesterday and kinda depressed, wish I could help him but sadly I couldn't ._. sorry bro ;x;
he even asked me, what is his lack?
well, he is almost perfect! ba-ka~ :/
his gf is really really stupid. I really wanna kick her butt right now >_>

ingin hati kuberkata~, "elu jadian aja sini sama gue" xDDD tapi enggak mungkin kan ye, yang ada putus hubungan kk adek lol

oiya, gue punya ekon rp baru =D jadi takeru ;3
this time I want to have a new gentle boyfriend!!! harus itu! capek gue maen sama orang2 jermani nan mesum >_>;;
I want to have a guy who can treat me right and spoil me lovingly ♥ moga2 bisa nemu di takeru yah, takeru kan cakep >_< amin!

pokoke gue musti bisa lebih bahagia daripada obet! gak boleh enggak! arus! dia gak boleh bahagia lebih dulu pula dari gue :/ *jaat*

vacation has over~

2008-07-13T17:53:00.003+07:00

without putting any make up =_=;; my face is in allergy

and I have to dye my hair into black again >_>;
well, I had done it this noon anyway. and so, that's the pic *points up* really /chinese/ lmao

which one I look better? in brown or black? xD

I'm kinda shock when my hair was black again. Somewhat I look like a miyavi :/ but of course my face isn't as handsome as miyavi lol just similar..

maybe I can cosplay as him later nee? ;3

U_U

2008-07-13T11:40:00.001+07:00

I joined a boiznk quiz. it's 1000questions..
and when I almost reached the 600question, the data lost

U_________________________U

I wanna cry ;__________;

:(( :(( :((

enough

2008-07-13T00:21:00.002+07:00

I'm enough with my life, really..

things arent going well and trust me, no one cares about me *laughs*
all they talk mostly about their problem nee? Yes I did tell them about my problems also, but not all of the problems, especially my real feelings. when I needed to talk light things to cure my feelings, they started crying to me *lirik seorang cowok geje dari singapur*, talked to me angrily with their own problems without clear reason, and mores

when I gave them advice, they just told me that they couldnt do it / didnt want it / other reasons. yadda yadda... but I bet you guys would be more mad to me if I only replied with ordinary answers like "oh, Im sorry about it", or put some sad emoticons. at least I should reply and give advice right??

really. I'm tired...
very tired

these days I'm having too much problems to be solved. and people added their problems in my mind. I can't handle it..

if I give you guys advices in your problems but you dont want it, its okay. its your right. but after that please dont talk and cry to me about it again.. because trust me, no one will be interested in those same topics every time. I give you the conclusion and also the way to solve it but you dont want it, so I dont want to get into it again :/
you are the one who doesnt want to end your pain, arent you?
it doesnt due to only a person no.. but some friends >.>; and I'm sorry if I sound mean.. but its really my mind now

okay, I realized that talked weird =__=;;
I'm still sick yeah. but its getting better now. though still cant breath. maybe I wrote this because of my ill too. so well, haha, when I'm getting healthier perhaps I wont act like this again so calm

sorry . .

I'm really enough with these all. I really think many questions which I dont know what the answer is

what is our main point to live in here?
why do we have to stay in this world?
what do we live for?
what should we do in here?

is there anyone can answer it? haha...

slowly but sure, I'm thinking a way to release my pain *coughs*
you guys definitely know what I am thinking to do next :]

fight

2008-07-11T21:40:00.002+07:00

havent fought with my mom since a while. and today, I fought with her.. haha..

I know my body isn't as health as it used to. I can't breath well [pilek, klo bahasa ancurnya gue udah bengek parah LOL], my throat is hurt, dizzy as hell, and many mores. so of course I'm being so lazy to speak to anyone

and so, when I was preparing for sleep earlier after locked my bedroom door, mom knocked my door roughly. lazily and weakly I opened it, but I had to press the door hardly if not, It would have never opened. and so, mom scolded me because I was hit the door roughly. but I didnt want to discuss it because my head is very dizzy..

so she yelled at me many times and screamed. then, the final, she told me, "I never want to have a child like you"

and... who want?????? well, she has said it many times before this. haha..

after that she scolded me more. and hit me twice *sighs*

I'm out of limit, so I yelled back, "I also never want to born in this family! I never can choose which family I should to be born to. but till now I never say it to you! "

and it brought up her emotion. she pinched my arm, hardly.. its still getting red now. haha
then she yelled to me many times. told me how much I have to thank for her. said to me that she never ask anything to be given. also let me know indirectly that she was the best mom

I'm outta and sick with this... why everyone is being cruel to me nowadays? >>;;
I'm tired. I'm sick. and of course I have my time for my own, haven't I?

*sighs*

my head is getting dizzy again. so I'm going to sleep soon. good bye

bengek!!!!!

2008-07-11T16:44:00.002+07:00

IDUNG GUE MAMPET!!! SIALAN!!!!! ingusnya pun beleberan enggak stop2!!!

huh hah huh hah!! *korek2 idung* dari smalem neh!! sialan!!!! >___>;;
udah gitu tenggorokan juga sakit, dan kpala gue pusing banget
tadi udah makan paya juga yang banyak, tetep aja enggak sembuh. aduh, kog sakit2 hari gini sii ;A;

masalahnya besok kan ada launching tuh pv aib gue!!!! dan *coughs* KATANYA TUH SBY DATENG X___X;;

enggak lucu kan klo gue lage jabatan ujung2nya gini

sei : halo om *nyengir nyengir najonk*
sby : salam kenal
sei : hua.. hua...
sby : ??
sei : HUATCHIUUU.. SROOTTT.. *ingus nempel en beleberan ke jas sby*
sby : *jantungan*
sei : *ditangkep sama bodyguards sby, brakhir di pnjara* ;O;

yaelah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_________> *korek2 idung terus*
ini ingus stop ngalir ngape siiiii ;A;

.....

berdarah lagi idungnya.. TT___TT *meper darah ke badan anjing* lol *is jorok*

oh yah, ari ini gue blajar potosyop banyak dari mipup en rei. thankies guys <3 udah bikin gue yang bego jadi pinteran dikit XD
terus si rei itu ngajarin gue udah banyak banget, ampe bikin gue bengek beneran. ngek XDD

yah, makasih deh. takoyakinya enggak usah ye. pisang goreng aje lol *kabur*

udah ah. pusing. mao opp. pipis loph en gaul! XD

before dye my hair into black again..

2008-07-10T16:14:00.004+07:00

I want to edit the photo *points a photo up to this sentence* into artistic *__*;; I mean, coloring in photoshop.. but how??? XD;;

can anyone teach me??? lol

soale di poto itu lage bagus guenya. tumben2an banget gitu yah bisa bagus XDDDD~ biasa kan cupu lol
oh yeah, I bought the chain in ohayourockers ;3

almost forgot!! today I found out a proof!
*coughs* sorry, it's in Indonesia XD

jadi ceritanya pas gue lage ngestalking pren2 hacchan [dalam rangka nyari cowok cakep], tiba2 gue nemuin ada seseorang yang depenya ada fans artnya JEK. JEK ini adalah salah seorang temennya mantan gue.. *coughs* oke dia peker, tapi gue tetep aja mao nyari bukti. scara si kortnei2 itu tiba2 jadi sering ngetag para ekon2 buaya daratnya, terus post di buletin maispes kopian mesej2 dari para ekon2nya. heran gue *godek2 kpala*

oke, bek to the topic. so gue add, terus tadi dia udah jadi temen gue. eh ternyata, beneran bok!!! itu poto2nya si jek. bedanya, disini nama dia bruno O.o;; kayak nama anjing ye XDDD~ *ditabok*lol

terus disana itu ada banyak poto2 jek yang enggak ada di photobucket bersama. gue lage berusaha minta sign dari si jek ini. kali aja dia yang asli =D
klo dia ada bikin sign buat gue, maka gue akan pampang gede2 ke muka si kortnei dan mengatakan, "GOTCHA!!!" BWAHAHAHAHAHA~ *sarap*

ehem... *tenang*

saa.. thats maybe my latest photo before I dye my hair into black again >_<;;
I have to go to school again next monday U_U;;
next time if I dye it again, should be PURPLE XD

moko-san

2008-07-09T14:03:00.005+07:00

edited by me ;3

I just knew that Mokomichi Hayami isnt popular enough..

a friend of my ex's judged me today that I planned to break up with my ex because I wanted to date someone named "MOKO" [p.s = moko-san is my nickname to mokomichi hayami-san]

and I was only... oh my God... I didnt think like that. never think like that. I never wanted to break up intensionally only for other guy!!!!!

How cruel . .

is that wrong if I love or be a fan of an actor and claim it on MSN?

indonesian language, [for the details also umpatan]

p.s = BULE GILA itu si mntan gue yang sableng

jadi si kortnei itu, onlen kan, terus enggak nyampe sedetik dia udah ngamuk2 ke gue. katanya "gue baru tau elo orang macam begini,. ternyata elo mutusin si BULE GILA itu supaya bisa jadian sama si moko2 ini kan? ternyata emank elo tuh enggak cukup baek yah buat dia. elo emank terlalu kecil untuk mengenal cinta"

ting tong... terlalu kecil untuk mengenal cinta? itu kata2 dia ketika si BULE GILA itu putus sama gue. jah, kena dhe lo :DDD

nah, lanjut.. akhirnya gue cengo, gue langsung bilang klo mokomoko itu cuman seorang aktor en bukan rper juga. gue cuman demen en ngefans gara2 pelem aja. emanknya salah?

ini mengacu soal peem gue yang ngmg = buang seseorang ke laut dan pelok moko-san dengan erat dan penuh cinta

padahal seseorang itu adalah edward dari novel laris twilight sodara2!!!! nah si kortnei2 ini mikir klo seseorang itu adalah si BULE GILA. makan deh tuh laut!!! orang maksud hati gue karna gue emank udah enggak demen yang namanya pampir2an, enakan robot gitu 8D bego bego *godek2 kpala*

terus dia malah ngejek gue dengan enggak mao denger ke gue, "jadi, biarkan gue pergi ke si BULE GILA, terus gue kaseh tau dia klo ternyata emank elonya aja yang rese, putus sama dia biar dapet cowok baru. gue bakal kaseh tau dia biar dia makin enggak respek sama elo. eh tapi, tunggu dulu. dia kan emank udah enggak ker sama elo ye *tertawa*"

ANJING LU PEREK!!!!!!!!!!! 83

emang dasar elo tuh bego apa idiot sii hah??
langsung aja gue ejek, "ohmaigad, jangan bilang ke gue klo elo enggak tau sapa yang namanya mokomichi hayami. dia kan pemes. ektor ngetop"

makan tuh!!

eh tau2nya dia malah ngalihin topik [yang berdasarkan lelucon gue en kana adalah dia mrasa malu banget karna emank udah salah ngejudging orang smbarangan en enggak tau sapa itu moko], dia malah ngmg2in soal kana. bilang klo mantanny kana udah enggak mao lage sama si kana, udah blok dia. udah bete soal si kana blablabla...

lah, LIKE WE CARE????????? O_________O

orang kita udah bahagia kog tanpa elu2 pade!!!!!!! rese banget siiii D<

KANA HAS A NEW LOVER!!! ;D named ******!!! lol

jadi yah, sapa juga sii yang peduli sama peker goblok? o_O

ah yawda, gue udah lega udah ngumpat gini XD
makasih ke blogku tercinta ;3 *elus2, cium2, perkosa* lol

deee~

zettai kareshi

2008-07-08T17:25:00.002+07:00

this dorama is the first movie who could make me crying as hell!! TwT
even ichi ritoru no namida only could produce a tear from my stoic eyes. but this one .. I cried without stop at the ending...

ho shit ho shit!!! ;A; now I look like a sentimental girl! hate it, but I have to admit this TwT

zettai kareshi is success making me cry like a baby!!!! I LOVE IT!!!!! 4THUMBS UP *gives all of my thumbs*

and so, I'm in love with naito-kun!!! *tosses edward who makes me reminding someone*

mokomichi hayami-sannnnnnnnnnnnn <3333333333
I wanna youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ;3

oh yeah. the real mokomichi-san [seems like], added my touya o_o;; aahhhh~~~~~~~ marry my touya please LOL

gue jadi pengen ngeRP jpop. sapa tau dapet pacarnya die lage XDDD;;
ganti haluan!!!!!!!!!!! 8D

japan evolution

2008-07-06T19:57:00.002+07:00

today went to j-vo at wtc mangga dua =D cosplaying as an original gothic lolita

I met a lot of people, such as my daddy yoi, rena, hacchan, mipup, ruui, rui-kun, garret, indoanime's member, auril, ishihara, raiha, and many mores~

I have a lot of fun in there. walo stoking robek en sol spatu somplak. yang penting seneng XD

pincang D8

2008-07-06T18:45:00.003+07:00

with hungriness, we went to Plaza Indonesia, across the hotel

dan demi enggak ancur gaya, [pake rok leopard mini en kacamata], gue enggak rela ngelepas high heels gue yang bener2 menyiksa en lancipppp banget Dx
karna lagi ada festival abang none jakarta, mobil kaga bisa lewat, jadi musti jalan kaki.. so gue, naik tangga penyebrangan busway pulang pergi dengan high heels 5 cm!!!!!

bayangin, hebat gak noh gue!!!
mana slametnye! xDD

yaiks!! >A<

2008-07-06T18:34:00.004+07:00

for dinner, I ate shabu-shabu at khayangan restaurant, one of restaurants in nikko

I REALLY REALLY DONT WANT TO PROMOTE THIS RESTAURANT AT ALL D<>A<;;; terus bayangin, moso satu set daging sama sayur *tunjuk2 yang di gambar* segitu aja udah 400ribu. mana enggak enak banget lagi.. nyesel banget. untung cuman pesen sdikit terus kabur

minus ten ;[

coctail in nikko

2008-07-06T18:25:00.002+07:00

is delicious~ 8Dv

mom and me bought it at oak's room in nikko.. she didnt like it, so hers was being mine ;3

should try it again next time XD

nikko

2008-07-06T18:16:00.002+07:00

I went to nikko international hotel yesterday, spending a night in there to heal my feeling -_-v
wore my new sunglass which I bought in Bandung several days ago..

lalalala~ Looks different XD

advance~

2008-07-06T17:51:00.001+07:00

mom bought this.. an eyes massager from advance

I've tried it, very relaxing 8Dv

new life

2008-07-04T12:40:00.002+07:00

I've broken up with someone that I dont want to say his name again

it brings happiness to me. thank you for your GOOOODDDness to spoil me which you claimed. thanks. but as you know, I dont think I got it from you. you ignored me toooo much

and so, we blocked each other in MSN, and I dont plan to unblock it. same with him I bet. so yeah, here I am. my new life. full of smile :DDDDDDDDDD

MY LIFE IS GETTING BETTER WITHOUT YOU!!

and trust me, I will never cry for him again. never and ever. never want to waste my tears only for someone like him. Like I care about him again~ ;3

he told me that I would never get a boyfriend as good as him again. and so what? Like I care??

Do you think if youre the best? youre the most good guy in this world? Fuck off with your mind. I dont care!!

You'll be the one who will regret because you wont get an AMAZING girlfriend like me again.

I wont cry. I wont be regret. I will be happy without you. that's all. thanks :]

*dancing with vi vi vi from SuG*

I never judge you as a faker, as you know it

good bye forever :]

bandung

2008-07-04T09:41:00.002+07:00

yesterday I went to Puncak and Bandung. went to Gonzo and buy an accessory to cosplay :p

no photos. sorry. because my phoneS died succesfully X_X;;

oh yeah. I also bought a sunglass =D

the day was full of shopping again.. ureshiiii~~~ <3333

my first kiss has been stolen ;A;

2008-07-02T22:25:00.003+07:00

aaa~~~~ gimme back my first kisssssss ;;A;; *cries out loudly*

NO

NO

NO

NO

NO

NO

today, someone offered me the cheek. thought the person wants me to kiss the cheek. So I moved my lips, trying to kiss. but unfortunately, the person moved the head and.. . .

MY LIPS MEET THE OTHER'S LIPS

ARGH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

F*CK NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

;;A;;

I DONT WANT TO LIVE AGAIN *suicide* TT________________________TT

its very ironic and bad kiss.....

I wanna cry.. TT__________________________________TT

the person who kissed me is . . .

enyak gue XD;;

for people who doesnt know what the meaning of "enyak gue" is and curious about it, just ask me via... anything... text, pm, msn, ym.... but I know you wont ever curious about it XDD

lalalala...

GIMME BACK IT ;A;

yak.. it's clear now

2008-07-02T11:46:00.003+07:00

klo bi ep saiah adalah seorang peker 8D

kmaren gue tanya ke cowok gue, knapa aipinya bisa ampe sama, ktanya dia kan sharing komputer. yawda gue percaya2 aja

tapi ternyata ari ini, cewek yang ditunggu2 kedatangannya sama gue sejak lama, spetttt dari kota yang berbeda dengan bi ep cs tinggal, ONLEN

maka segera meluncurlah aplikasi hek-an saiah 8D

dan ternyata, aipinya sama... ohohoho... aipinya si daddy gue juga sama... lalalala~

jadi, saiah skarang sedang menetapkan hati untuk putus. mohon doanya sodara2!!!!
pokoke klo gue ampe mewek, tolong dihibur yah xDDD

P.S = mulai skarang, DILARANG nyebut2 nama itu orang lage tolong!!!! xDDDD

2008-07-01T21:47:00.002+07:00

I went to pasar baroe and bought a new straightener, eyelashes also the glue, brown coloring hair, and others.. shoppinggg~~~ 8D

after that went to La Piazza, and bought my favorite at strabucks, ice blended non coffee vanilla <3

it's delicious

this day was tiring, but I enjoyed it. it's full of shopping shopping and shopping :3

P.S = even mom scolded me because too much bought things and stuffs lol

ternyata SALAH sodara2!!!!!! O_________O

2008-07-01T10:43:00.000+07:00

tadi saiah ngecek lage 2 temen bi ep nya saiah!!!!!!! BEDA SEKARANG AIPINYAAAAAA O______O

aipinya bi ep saiah emank masih kayak kmaren2, tapi katanya emank kmaren2 temen2nya pada shering komputer bareng2......

could it be?????

O___________________________________________________________O

*bergodek2 gemeter*

DIA ASLI DONK??????????????????????????????????????????????

*antara bingung sama sakit perut*

bgm > vi vi vi SuG 8D

brenda's birthday

2008-06-30T19:17:00.003+07:00

went to sport mall and ate seafood together =D

this is fish's head which I ate LOL

andersen's...

2008-06-30T07:29:00.004+07:00

to recover the bad mood, I went to Taman Anggrek and bought an andersen's ice cream... It's from denmark :p

I got caramel topping..... very delicious~~

and so, this is kelapa gading in the night, photo's by me inside my car XDDDD

kelapa gading is a section where I'm living right now, and I heard it's one of the elite sections in jakarta.... also it's full of chinese and korean people :]
it's the heaven of food, because there are toooooo many restaurants in there. so if someone come to here, don't forget to come to kelapa gading to taste them. it has indonesian food from cheap to expensive. all in kelapa gading yeay 8D *promotes* XD

alay?

2008-06-30T07:21:00.003+07:00

yesterday I visited my grand mother... there were some cousins and an aunt, but because I'm not very close with them so I didn't talk, only texting some friends :3

then....

my aunt saw my hair and my make up, she said, "why do you style your look like that? It doesnt suit with you... Looks like alay" I dont know what is ALAY in english so skip skip xD [for indonesian people who know what alay is called in english, tell me please lol] I just can say if alay is a bad meaning in Indonesia... also its for called ugly and bad behave people(?) but I'm not pretty sure with my explanation lol

but I was very shock!!!! >A<;;;
I've never been called ALAY before this..... I'm pissed.........

Am I look like an alay? :/

orang keempat dan orang kelima..

2008-06-28T14:12:00.002+07:00

tadi pagi enggak sengaja ketemu sama temennya si biep saiah yang jarang onlen.. terus dengan begonya malah ngesend program gitu xD; tpian entah untung dalam kesialan atau begimana, malah gara2 itu ketangkep aipinya

sekali lgi sodara sodara.. aipinya sama xDDDDDDDD *godek2 kpala*

lalu, ketemu mantan cowoknya biep saiah... terus dengan penuh rasa yakin, saya ngecek aipinya dia lage...

and as i have expected, aipinya sama 8DDDDD

so far, gue jadi tau dia udah maen 6 orang... 1 jadi biep saiah yang sableng, sisanya berpura2 sbagai teman untuk nguatin alibinya dia

hahaha.... *laughs bitterly*

I'm downloading many PV's [love addict from vamps, vi vi vi from SuG, and others..] but so far it's always failed TwT wish me luck >_<

terus.... ada tamara 8D

2008-06-27T20:53:00.002+07:00

aku syuting bareng tamara 8DDDD *overly excited*

tamara cakep banget.. untung aku tak berdiri di sbelahnya, klo enggak kliatan jeleknya 8D
terus baek... bangetbangetbanget... ramah.. attitude en tata bahasanya manis >A< aku iriii

tamara.... nikahi aku xD *digaplok*

the shooting

2008-06-27T20:39:00.002+07:00

was tiringgggg >A<;;; though I only will appear for seconds in the video clip, it took my power and energy a lot T_T its very hard to be an actress or model nee? xDD dikonde itu menyiksa rambut... sakit banget.. ditambah lage gue jelek pisan dikonde xDD;; mekap artistnya udah seteres sama rambut gue.. pirang2 cepak dikonde 8D;; yah orang gue kaga tau kan mao dipake gonoan.. jangan salain saya donk bu lol so for people who will watch the video, /maap gue udah ancurin imej jejepunan/ [red : I'm sorry I've broken japanese girl image in me because of wearing the costume] xD

so this is my picture, with one of traditional costumes in Indonesia... Kebaya

LENONG BOCAH TAMPIL 8D
warning : don't laugh at me!! I know I'm ugly ;A;

tahi kamu 8D

2008-06-26T11:27:00.002+07:00

ternyata.... ahahahahaha.... elo pekeL..

dari awal emang udah curiga seh, ternyata pas tau it hurts me more... hahahahaha

untung inet gue udah balik pemirsa2... makanya tadi gue udah bisa ngehek die lage 8D
ternyata bener.... ipnya bi ep gue sama si bapak gue [sensor nama] itu sama... sementara itu kan ipnya si jek juga sama kan sama nama bapak gue.. artinya sama smua donk

ohohohohoho.... makasih udah boongin gue slama ini bet.... enem bulan pacaran di real sama spuluh bulanan pcaran di erpe udah bikin gue cukup dalem ke elo..... tapi yah klo elo pekeL, gue kaga bisa ngapa2in lage...

gue kaga tau ah mao ngapaen lage... ahahaha *udah gila*

i dont want to open your identity now. not yet... but i know who you are... so please, if you do really CINTA me, tell me the real you...

bingung mao putus ama enggak... ahahaahhahaa

tahi elo para orang lenteng agung.... makaseh udah nyakitin gue en kana

tired.....

2008-06-25T23:36:00.002+07:00

i joined as a model [well, there are many models...] in a video clip which tittled "Indonesiaku" [ red : my Indonesia ]

Im going to wear a traditional costume from a section of my country, "kebaya", which it's from jakarta..

the video will be published soon... maybe if i look good on there, im going to upload it.. but if not, dont ever ask me to do it xDD;;

the director said to me that it would be promoted in cinemas and tv's channel. after and before the movie in cinema was started, they would play the video...

and oh my God -____-;;;; I'm very nervous...

I'm gonna do the shooting at 27... well, wish me luck >_> i dont want to look ugly ;__;
so if im ugly, ~~that's my face's fault~~ that's the make up artist's fault xDDD

new moon

2008-06-15T18:45:00.004+07:00

I finally finished reading NEW MOON a few days ago..

because there's no the indonesian version in here, so I had to read the english translation TT___TT;; it's really hard >_>;; because I never read any english book before [even never read my school's book]

But because my deep love to edward *is vomit*
I'm willing to read it as well. and as I expected, the language is... DIFFICULTTTT~~~

I was understand the first chapters, but when bella came to Italy and the story talked about Volturi's family, I dont understand >__<;;; *kicks a desk* at least I know the story now lol cant wait to buy the third book, eclipse <3

and my opinion is = twilight is better than new moon

since the book doesnt tell about edward much lol and it's not very interest me.. just some complicated feelings in bella's mind.. and maybe because it's more dreamy than new moon. since new moon has a complicated story. not like twilight
But above all, new moon is a good book. two thumbs up for stephenie meyer

and so, this is the synopsis I had found=

Bella has been going out with her vampire boyfriend Edward for six blissfully happy months. The only thing that worries her is his steadfast refusal to even consider making her into a vampire like him. As the day of her eighteenth birthday rolls around she feels less than happy because she is now older than Edward, who will never age past seventeen.

To celebrate her birthday Edward takes Bella to a birthday party at his family home but when a stupid accident that leaves Bella covered in blood and nearly triggers a feeding frenzy in Jasper, Edward’s brother, the party falls somewhat flat.

Edward suddenly becomes more distant towards to Bella and finally he tells her that he and his family are leaving Forks, to never return, and he no longer wants to see her.

Edward is Bella’s whole world and his abandonment is a harsh blow. Her whole world falls apart and as she becomes withdrawn from the world she soon loses most of her friends becoming even more isolated and lonely.

When she does something dangerous she starts hallucinating and thinks she can hear Edward telling her not to do anything stupid and to be more careful. This leads to a whole new range of interests for Bella including learning to ride a motorbike and cliff diving because she feels that he is still with her at those times. Her old friend Jacob Black becomes her partner in crime, fixing up her motorbike for her and teaching her to ride it. Although the pain of Edward’s departure never leaves Bella, Jacob soon becomes her best friend and he helps to fill some of the voids in her life.

Jacob himself is no ordinary boy and soon Bella discovers that part of his Quileute heritage is to be cursed to be a werewolf. Certain members of the tribe turn into werewolves in their teenage years in response to the presence of vampires. Werewolves and vampires are natural enemies and the enmity runs deep on both sides.

Alice returns to Forks and although she brings no news of Edward with her, her extraordinary gift of being able to see the future soon tells her that Edward is heading on a path of self destruction that only Bella can advert. But will Bella be in time to stop the tragedy?

gading

2008-06-15T17:49:00.002+07:00

I watched shutter with some classmates friends at XXI in gading.. XC is the ♥

the girl next to me is brenda.. the girl that i kissed the most in my class :3
see her cheeks!!!! its really cute >_<
and compare it with me xD; sometimes im kinda jealous with that lol

[ if you ask my behave, yes i often kiss my friends (girls!!!) on they cheek. just for fun, not because I'm lesbian or what.. ]

I'm going to watch kung fu panda again with her and my other classmates at monday =3

highlight

2008-06-15T17:41:00.002+07:00

because I dont really like the color, I decided to put some highlights

again without make up >__>;;
and plus, without photoshopped o.o;;

I think I started like my whole face lol *gets slapped* nyah =w=;;

blondie??

2008-06-15T17:28:00.002+07:00

I was dye my hair into blonde :3

but I dont know how come the color could be like this =

without make up xDD;;;
aaa~~ blonde >_<

twilight

2008-06-07T12:59:00.002+07:00

this book has hypnotized me very great.. I never read any book so fast except this one. I couldn't do anything before I read it and finally it's finished at 9a.m in me after read it for 8 hours [it's not nonstop okay? xD]

and the conclusion is

I DO FALL IN LOVE WITH EDWARD!!!!!!
!
stephenie meyer wrote this book very great, and because I'm not good in giving any comment, I can't say much about this book. Just say that you guys should read it..

and though the twilight series almost gets into the 4th books in america, in my country the first book was just translated into indonesia language 1-2months ago. HOW UNFAIR!!! >____>

I pray for the translator, hope they would finish translate new moon soon..

oh yeah, for people who dont know what twilight is, I found the synopsis :D

TWILIGHT is an action-packed, modern-day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn’t expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she’s ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands — and he hasn’t aged since 1918. Like all vampires, he’s immortal. But he doesn’t have fangs, and he doesn’t drink human blood; Edward and his family are unique among vampires in their lifestyle choice. To Edward, Bella is that thing he has waited 90 years for — a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward and Bella do when James (Cam Gigandet), Laurent (Edi Gathegi) and Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre), the Cullens’ mortal vampire enemies, come to town, looking for her?

the movie will be in theaters at 12.12.08
cant wait to see it with melon <3
edward will be stared by robert pattinson, ahhh <33333333

I LOVE YOU EDWARD, REALLY *_____________________*

kana oh kana~

2008-06-07T12:46:00.003+07:00

I do never think that you really fall in love with JONATHAN ROBERT LINTANG!!!! o____________O

well, though I never meet him [direct or indirect] but if you really love him, then I'm going to support you. I hope this guy can cure you as well... and by the way

WHY SHOULD YOU LOVE SOMEONE WHO HAS THAT NAME?? XD;;;;;;;;;

I've realized that you love this guy since a long time :]
and I hope this one is the one for you... and also I hope you wouldn't cry again anymore because of a relationship

just hope you would luck this time girl!! dont forget for the PJ [Pajak Jadian / Relationship tax] for me okay? >D

my fault?

2008-06-07T11:42:00.002+07:00

since my new contact lens had came, I decided to use it when I was in study tour to TMII and Lubang Buaya. and I used my precious necklace too [my favorite necklace for 5years <3]

then, some girls asked me when my other friends was in toilet.. [I didn't go because I don't like public toilet >.>;; ] and for God's sake, I never knew who they were in my whole life. even remembered their face no o_o

first they asked where I bought my lens, I told them that I had ordered it through internet. then asked where I bought my necklace and I answered that it's from mangga dua. again they asked about my hair, wasn't I do hair extension or not. and I said no, it's my real hair..

Then I texted some friends and ignored them.. Well, I don't like to talk with people that I don't know much because I've no topic at all. and then I heard that they was talking about me.. like why did I use my necklace and lens like I was suit to use it. and even talked about my hair? Well I didn't really catch their conversation well because there kinda crowd with students. [ditambah lagi klo bahasa indonesianya, gue rada BUDEG coy!!]

so I ignored them..

but when I was going to my bus with a friend of mine, melon, a girl [does it the same girl or no? I don't know.. everygirls look same in my eyes *_*;; ] she talked to melon and insulted about me.. but I'm not pretty sure what she was talking about, I'm just sure, she talked about my lens and style

and now... what the..? I think I've never bothered them or even talked with them! So what's their right to talk about me? I don't even know them so why should I deserve these??

I did really want to kick them but well, keep peaceful guys -_-v
but I just can't take it.. I think, my style or even my contact lens aren't their business. so why should they discuss about it? I have a RIGHT to keep my style, don't I?

*sighs*

I don't like it.. they don't even my friends.. so they don't have any right to talk like that about me. I think my style never bother them, ever! what I wear and what I use are not their problems!!

I don't like it >__________<

I just ear lens, a necklace, and only cut my hair like that. how if I come to school with my visual-kei make up, blonde hair, and harajuku's clothes? >DD

I think I'm gonna be kicked by them, haha.. but well now, I'm attracted to try it =3 [orang yang makin ditantang makin pengen nantangin xD;]
this is my life and I don't care about others. as long as some people that I love still beside me and dont complaint about it, I think if everything is fine =]

I love my friend, vina, shinta, and melon <3333

---

and last, I love my boy friend robert <31000x>

season one

2008-06-04T11:18:00.002+07:00

i passed the season one for afs <3
yeay!! the next test is this sunday... including english interview

DIE ME TT________________TT;;

I cant speak english so how come i pass it??????? someone please help meeee ;A;

weekend

2008-06-04T11:07:00.002+07:00

melon asked me to join her birthday party in pizza hut kelapa gading so I came to there... there are vina, shinta, marissa, raisa, veve, robby, franky, raymond, michael, and 2 another guys that i dont know.. unluckily, alvin couldn't join us..

unexpectedly, asun texted me, telling me that he would come to kelapa gading too because he had to make his birthday party too.. then he asked me to join them. so after melon's party had over, i met them..

asun's friends wasn't stop teasing me with him.. then i told them that i have a boyfriend now *points someone pervert lol* but the friends wouldn't stop tease me.. im tired -___-;;;

lalalala~ anythings okay now so, oh yeah!! I DO FALL IN LOVE WITH EDWARD, THE VAMPIRE FROM TWILIGHT

and when i was saying it to robert he looked depressed(?), he doesnt like it, moreover he doesnt like fantasy
haha cute <3

final exam..

2008-06-04T10:40:00.002+07:00

has finished~~~ *dies*

well, it was tiring as hell u__u;; I was not sleep enough in those week. but at least it has finished now so I have much time to play around again in here :D

and the good news, robert is in summer vacation so we can meet much more

then, my deeply apologize to kana.. since im the one who makes his boyfriend doesnt want to talk anymore with her.. im really sorry kana -die sih ngmgnya kaga apa2 lega... dasar lo-

vacationnn~~~~

final test

2008-05-22T16:59:00.002+07:00

I'm gonna get my final tests next monday and I'm very very afraid with them >____<
My head is full with so many numbers from math and CH from chemistry O.o;;

dizzyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~ >___________<

and then, I missed /HIM/ so much today ;________;
I dont know why, just missed him. But I am not dare to text him again. I've texted him a lot this month so I dont want him to get charged as much as several months ago >_<

yesterday was our 5th months anniversary but I couldn't on so we couldn't meet and celebrate it .___.

though that, 6th months is going to be celebrated by us as well, Im pretty sure about it <3
[ if you still wanna be with me till that time, bet xD; ]

meanwhile..
I'm still confused with choosing 2 good photos for my modeling competition.. They asked me to give them 2 photos of my close up face. but I dont know which are better >_>;;
anyone, help me??

---------
bgm : gackt - last song
aaa~~ gakuto-sannn <333333

good bye?

2008-05-19T19:48:00.003+07:00

since my sick has gotten worser, mom decided to block my internet from my desktop. and I couldn't do anything with that.. So, I'm sorry people. maybe I can't be here as much as used to be again ._____________.

nyoh. sebenernya alasannya yah karna tagihan spidi gw membengkak 2,4 juta (tagihan dari bulan april-mei) cumanan, haha, sperti biasa. jangan percaya yang gue ngmg di bahasa engrish 8D;; *setan*

yah jadinya skarang gue mao ngumpulin duit dulu =A=;; mao bayar utang ke enyak itu.. caranya?? mom asked me to be a model!!!! what the..?? ;A;

iye sii duitnya banyak, tapi kan KALO MENANG >___<

mana si bebek sama kana bilang ikut2 aja pula =3=;;
yawda deh, udah daptar gue. doain ye moga2 menang xDDDD

klo menang entar inet gue balik yeay 8D

doakan juga smoga saiah lulus tes afs.. >_> ah gue banyak amat sii mintanya xD;;

yawda ah... deeee

I just realize

2008-05-14T00:07:00.002+07:00

if Robert is tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice to me D:

and we won't ever argue each other if it's not because of me who always start the cases o_o so all of the problems is only because of /me/ >___>;;

yah, klo gue enggak jutekin dia gue bakalan mesra terus kan yah? O_O;;

okay. I'm sorry robert >_<;; deeply apologize..

its really stupid because just realize it after a lot of things happened. He's just, too nice to me.. I shouldn't make him upset. so, because I don't want him to get upset more. I'm gonna be more mature started a minute ago :]

a new Seira has born =D wish me luck >.>

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i love you too much robert ♥ wish I could see him soon

asunnn TT_________TT;;

2008-05-13T23:00:00.002+07:00

today when I sent many texts with Asun again [ for who doesn't know who Asun is, Asun is someone that I loved when I was in 9th grade. you could read about him a little in here ] suddenly he asked my relationship with Robert. I told him that everything is going fine, though sometimes not. And he asked me directly whether I slapped robert too or not like I did to Asun everyday in last year [ my hobby is slapping people <3 but it's only a light slap D: ]

and I said no. [Or Have I ever done it to you, bet? o.o;;] and something stabbed me from Asun's words after that, "oh. so he doesnt know your original attitude, does he?"

.___________________________________________________________.

I'm feeling guilty....

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I miss you ;_;

sex?

2008-05-13T18:30:00.007+07:00

there are a guy from facebook added my MSN. he told me that he worked in making porn video or something like that o.o;

then after that, he started the conversation with pervy things. he told me that sex is beautiful, sex is good, I will love it after I do that. even he asked me to watch porn. yare yare, what the hell is he thinking about? >___>;;

I've told him that I'm not old enough to watch it. Hey, I'm just 15! o.o;; and really, it's not my priority. I'm gonna watch it maybe someday. but, it's maybe and someday ! but he still forced me indirectly to watch it. he told me that how come I do sex with my husband if I don't know how to do that well? I should learn from the videos at first. HELL NO!!!!!

maybe I don't know it well but I don't wanna watch it and I know my husband will understand it[or he should do xD] Maybe I'm pervert and often talk dirty things but I even cover my eyes when watching people's kissing so how come I can to see people do sex? And though I never see any guy's dick except my young brother's and surely I'm gonna get a chance to see it in porn video's, SO WHAT??? O__________O

like I care about those things?

Why should he force me? >_> my sex between me and my husband in the future is my problem and not his! o.o so dude, please respect me.. why should I watch porn? well okay, everyone has a choice and I choose not to watch it. am I wrong?

For me, somethings will be more precious and worthed if you do it in the right time. Like sex. I don't want to do sex before married not only because of my culture [asian] or my husband's happiness if he gets a virgin wife. But the main thing is it's for my own good. I believe that if I can wait till married to do sex, sex will be more worthed in me. Because it's special moment. If you can do sex in anytime and anywhere with anyone, it will be boring don't it? I want to keep my curiosity and make it larger till the right time for me to release it with my husband :]

well, this sentence is only good in Indonesia, "segala sesuatu itu indah pada waktunya" --> everything is beautiful at the suit time

then, lets take an example. If you eat much your favorite food than you should, You'll sick with them and dont want to eat it again later. But if you be patient and eat it rarely, you'll taste it better. So if I watch porn video now, I think I'm gonna addict with it [okay, I'm honest~ xD] and then always watch it. Consequence, someday I'm gonna sick with porn video and don't like sex anymore [impotent?lol]

And yeah, I know mostly people dont but I know myself well. If I do that, I'm gonna sick with it. So, no no no... not for now.. I prefer my future xD

No sex and no porn video in my life right now! o.o

and for me it's a little strange if you do love your lovers but can't wait to do sex with them. "OMG I love him/her so I've to do sex with him to show how much I love him/her" or "I'm sure I'm gonna marry him/her so why should I wait till the time? Let's do it now" or something like that. Well, not for me. If you really did love your lovers till die, you'd wait. Is it wrong to wait till the marriage for some months/years if you guys love each other? If you guys really love each other, all of you will marry right? So what's the difference?

just wait U___U

But nah, I'm not talking if having free sex is bad. nah. It's my opinion, not yours, right ;] so I respect yours, and I hope you guys will respect mine too
and for people who think if free sex is sin, well. who are you till you can judge it? o.o we all did sin right? lie is a sin too, but you will almost never say people who lie to you if they just do sin right? [ okay, I just learn about these topic several weeks ago tho, learn it because of my boyfriend's case ]
just be careful friends if you do it. prepare condom if you arent ready yet to be parents o.o and dont switch partners easily or you'd get sex disease easier. just warning n____n

Well, I'm not good in explaining but, I hope you guys would know my point of view for these case.

Im typing unwell >_>;; ready to go to my course. bye all o.o

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ily robert ♥

gembel lo pecun xD

2008-05-13T18:12:00.002+07:00

i found something good when I was hacking people's myspace!! O.o

en ternyata ye, cewek yang gue benci bareng kana [elo benci juga kan bok? xD;] ngadu domba orang!!! D<>____<;;
ngapain sih dia ngadu2 ke bokap gw klo dia ada masalah? ngurusin sendiri aja ngape urusan dia?

mari kita sebut si bokap gue dengan sed dan tuh cewek sialan pake spet lalu si korban dengan nama... sapa ye namanye tadi xD;; yawda deh namanya si itu saja lol

jadi ceritanya si itu lage muji2 rambutnya si spet tapian terus entah knapa si spet ngadu2 ke sed klo si itu ngapainin dia yang jelek2. sed dengan rasa kepemimpinan yang tinggi(?) langsung ngamuk2in si itu. terus si itu yah ngamuk donk. orang dia kaga ngapa2in. terus dia ngmg, ngapain juga si sed bantuin spet? orang ini masalahnya si spet, en spet adalah seorang cewek gede o.o

and yeah. i think she's right >_> orang elo bisa kan ngurusin masalah elo sndiri? ngapain pake bawa2 orang buat brantem? tahi kamu o.o

udah ngadu2 enggak jelas, minta bapak gue tolongin dia, terus pasti nyengir tuh di blakang udah berhasil bikin orang brantem. kaga tau diri dah tuh *santet* D<

terus ternyataaaa.. terjadi kenyataan yang cukup memicu jantung saiah dan kana sodara2!!! >___> si itu ngmg klo si sed itu enggal riil!!!!! dan dari yang saiah dan kana tangkep, spet memainkan sed O_______________O

jadi si bapak saiah itu, peker?????? dan smuanya yang maenin mulai dari cowok gue en kana ampe temen2nya mereka si spet??

OH MY GOD I CAN'T TAKE IT!!!!!!!! >_________>

klo seandainya yah beneran yang maenin smuanya itu si spet, well.. gue minta putus!!! 8D;;;
ogah gue pacaran sama cewek!! ogah ogah ogah!!!!!
lebih ogah lage pacaran sama peker!! ogah!!!!!

spet sialan dasar gembel D<>___>
apanya sii lo yang cakep. badan kayak babon juga D< oke toked gede *ngaku kalah* tapi setidaknya gue lbih proporsional ah *digampar* XDDDD
udah gitu jelek editannya.. masih bagusan gue, ya pan? 8Dv *ish bangga* xD
yang begitu tuh mao ngaku jadi tukang ngedit? ih gue aja yang bego bisa bikin lebih bagus daripada elo cinta.. ahahahahahha *ktawa sarap* xD;;;

udah ah capek. benci gue ama tuh pecun satu *digampar rame2 klo ktauan ngmgin* xDD

moga2 aja pada kaga sadar ye lol klo sadar yang ada gue ikutan diamukin massa xD

AFS

2008-05-12T15:45:00.002+07:00

yesterday was my AFS test [exchange student, kay?] and it has 3 paper tests waiting for me -.-;

first is public knowledge. it took 120mins and really tiring x___x;; I only could answer 44 from 100 questions ;A; how come??? I had learned many important things for me that I thought that it would get out in the test, but there's no one appear >__<;;; this one is not pass ;3;

second is english language. this one is kinda easy. or shall I say if the test is really easy? O.o this one pass :D

third is indonesia language. I made an essay about what's my reason to join the exchange student and the impact if I'm chosen. It's really really /mengarang indah/ *doesnt know the english is*. My hand was really almost till the limit xDD;; but at least, this one I guess pass

waiting for 2nd june now.. I hope I'd see my name as the student who pass it >___>;;

i'm so sorry

2008-05-12T11:22:00.002+07:00

now i just need to believe what I do believe right? and I shouldn't care about others opinion about my relationship. because our relationship is mine, not others

thanks for ruui and seth who realized me. i owe you all much <3

and robert.. im really sorry... .___.

aaarrrghh~ im almost crazy now.. i miss him again, a lot.. our conversation after 2weeks went bad today. but, okay. ive seen him and i know if he's alright, so it doesnt matter for me now :]

good bye all, for now

to be honest, it's hurt..

2008-05-05T18:25:00.002+07:00

ahahahaha *laughs bitterly* in fact there were much more blood before but I had washed it.. unlucky . .

infected emo now.. and happy birthday seth <3

2008-05-05T00:24:00.005+07:00

robert, I don't know what do you think about me, what's your feeling towards me, and what's my existence for in your life. I'm only one of your many friends and lovers in your great life, right?

am I only the one who think our relationship is not only an /online/ like chiyu's player told me but a relationship which only separated because of the distance? you have been inside my life 120%. you're my everything. but as got that statement from chiyu (see the previous post), I really get down ._________. maybe I'm nothing in your life. well yeah, maybe I get the status, your girlfriend, but no more.. maybe?

I got so many questions in my head right now..
have you ever thought to visit me someday? chiyu's words really get me down about it now.. really.. I know and care you can't afford it but.. *sighs* sorry, I'm a spoiled and bad girlfriend..
did you think our relationship is only a play like our roleplay accounts? only /A/ long distance online relationship that you shouldn't think about it too much not like I do?
do you feel like, love, or extremely love to me? due to a guy who has an online girlfriend told me that he didn't love his girlfriend but only like, meanwhile he still always says love to his girl because it's his responsibility makes me really get down over and over
what's my differentness with your others lovers? you can't touch me right? so why do you still wanna be with someone that you never meet and never can touch instead you have a lot of guys and chicks in there waiting for your love and ready to give their love and body more than I could..

..I don't have any confident now..

no, I don't mean I don't have any confident to be with you now or I want to break up with you, no. I overly love you, I really really do. but, I can't get those questions (and always gets multiply everytime) away from my mind

*sighs*

I really wish you could be here.. we haven't talked for about a week. so I just could read our conversation which I saved and smiled alone. not trying to be the pathetic one *nods*. maybe I just don't have any love or relationship experience before so it makes me like this. so that's why, I'm sorry.. and, I do really love you. I really do. I do!! ;__;

and today is seth's birthday, happy birthday dude <3 ~~and simon cowell is hawt seth!! don't you know it? lol~~

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I miss you a lot ♥

I... don't know what online relationship is about

2008-05-04T15:37:00.003+07:00

I did a conversation with chiyu today which really stabbed my chest .___. here you go..

わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:30 PM):
online relationship
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:31 PM):
is suppose to be just 'online'
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:31 PM):
or
Seira says (3:31 PM):
.. what do you mean
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:31 PM):
listen you are the girl, and robert is the boy
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:31 PM):
so if he loves you
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:31 PM):
he will come here and meet you
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:31 PM):
he will try to find you
Seira says (3:31 PM):
....................................
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
in this position who will some to see the other?
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
you!
Seira says (3:32 PM):
... I dont come to his place yet ._.
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
*come
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
Yet
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
but soon!
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
XD
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
right?
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:32 PM):
you have a plan
Seira says (3:33 PM):
.. well.. he just, doesnt have money to go >.>
Seira says (3:33 PM):
I should think about it..
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:33 PM):
>.>
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:33 PM):
<.<
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:33 PM):
seira
Seira says (3:33 PM):
O.o
Seira says (3:33 PM):
what??
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:33 PM):
indonesia is a cheap country
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:34 PM):
a cup of tea even not reach a buck!
Seira says (3:34 PM):
O.o yeah.. but still, the ticket shouldnt be as cheap as the tea!
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:35 PM):
maybe the tickets is expensive
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:35 PM):
but, if he really really loves and wants to meet you
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:35 PM):
he'll go save his money
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:36 PM):
one by one bucks
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:36 PM):
i dont want to negative thinking to him
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:36 PM):
but, i do love you
わぉ(;'o▲O艸)) -- says (3:36 PM):
and i dont want something really bad happen to you

I... dont know..

I really dont know ._____________.

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miss you ♥ wish you were here..

2008-05-01T16:16:00.004+07:00

kana told me her dream today... a silly dream about her homestay

so the story is :
kana wrote a letter to her family that she would live with together in L.A (homestay) then she told his boyfriend jonas the address. after that Jonas laughed and told her that it was Seth's home. Kana, in shock, asked Seth and Seth asked her back whether how could she knew his address. then kana went to L.A. there are Seth, Jonas and my boyfriend, Robert (now I'm thinking that I shouldn't keep it as the secret again, sorry bet >.<) picked up Kana to Seth's home Then we got some silly conversation in Indonesia (our brains are mess up as well today so no english each other), I'm gonna wrote the translation in english anyway in RED :]

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
aanggg... gue maonya klo homestay-an di rumahnya obet >3< anng... but if I do homestay, I wanna in Robert's home >3<

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
tapian gw bertaruh kluarganya entar kesusahan ama gue 8D;;;; but I bet if his family would get many bad things and problems because of me 8D;;;

F a k e ☆ • K ☆ says:
xDDDDDD;;;;

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
jadi, gue bareng elo aja sama daddy *nemplok* so let me be with you and daddy (seth) *sticks on kana*

F a k e ☆ • K ☆ says:
adany ntar lu gamau dkamar laen, maunye skamar ma obet lol you'd want to get others room because you wanted to be robert's roommate lol

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
*GAMPAR* *SLAPS*

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
O___O

F a k e ☆ •K ☆ says:
bener kan? am I right?

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
kaga no

F a k e ☆ •K ☆ says:
oh kirain oh, I thought

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
*malingin muka* *throws my face*

F a k e ☆ • K ☆ says:
kagak salah lagi? not wrong?

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
*gmpar* *slaps again*

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
ogaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh NO WAYYYYY

F a k e ☆ • K ☆ says:
MBHUAHUAHUAHUAHUA

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
>///3///<;;;;

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
*TABOKIN KANA* *slaps kana many times*

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
OGAHOGAHOGAHHHHH NOWAYNOWAYNOWAYNOWAY

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
jangan kayak temen gue loooo Dont you be like my classmates

F a k e ☆ • K ☆says:
huh? huh?

Seira- is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
smua bilang gw alesan mao homestay di sono pengennya di rumah obet, skamar ama obet everyone said my reason for doing homestay is live in robert's home and get a room together with him

Seira - is officialy hating YOU-KNOW-WHO >D - says:
biar bisa berbuat sesuatu yang dilarang ortu so we could do something that parent's not allow us

F a k e ☆ • K ☆ says:
ghuahuahuahauahuhaaa

jaaahhh... It's not like thattt >3<;;; reallyyy O___o
I was sure if I got a room together with my boyfriend, I'd gonna die soon before he could touch me even a little bit part of my skins lol

so well.. *coughs after saw kana's valentine present from jonas*
that's all I guess for now

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robert, miss you too much till my chest felt like being stabbed *lebay* .___. where are you? U_U ♥

take it 8D

2008-05-01T00:38:00.003+07:00

a guy tried to flirt me.. he asked me to give him my pics because he thought that I was so cute. cute? makan tuh cute dari bojong *tabok2in tuh cowok ganjen*

okay, back to the english *alah*
so I gave him about 2-3 new pics. but he asked me more = ="
though I told him that I already had a boyfriend ♥ but he still didn't give up *sighs*
and because I was so depressed I told him I have a favorite pic but I wasn't sure that he wanted it. but he forced me to so I gave hi

so yeah, here you go ;D

you asked me to give you. not me lol *dances*

after that he looked down and didn't reply my post, till now >DDDDD *devilish*

and I'm gonna off now.. not sleepy but I need to take a nap >_>

I hate IF

2008-04-30T22:36:00.004+07:00

the person that I loved veryyyyyyy much when I was in 9th grade, Asun, texted me again today. we talked about a lot of light things and stuffs, and suddenly I slipped out to him that I had a boyfriend now (r*****, if you read this blog, yes, it's you)

and then, he told me, "If you still remember, in the past you have ever told me that having relationship was something which it is so precious for you when it really happened in your life. but something which its so precious for you was held by someone that you even never met in your whole life. it's nothing but really weird for me"

is it, really weird for you? .___.

then, I told my best friend, Jessica, she told me that Asun was jealous and pissed off. she means, after all the things and sacrifices that he had done for me and he felt very close with me to get me, now a guy who's suddenly came into my life being my boyfriend as well, defeated him. so, asun got broken hearted again because of me. he isn't willing to let me go with strange guy.

I was spechless with asun emoticons. he never used " ^ ^ " whenever texting me.. but he did it today, when I was talking about my boyfriend. It scared me so much.. I know if he is mad at me.. he is sad, also pissed..

then... talking about past

now who's wrong???

I did rp because of him!!!!!! because I thought he didnt have the same feeling like I did to him. then after that I was hopeless to get him, then hime came to me, asking me to join roleplay in myspace. and he CONFESSED to me after I enjoyed roleplaying and tried to forget about him. IT'S OUT OF MY CONTROL >_________>

if he was more aggressive replying my feeling in 9th grade, I wouldn't give up to get him!!! I wouldn't do RP!! I wouldn't meet my boyfriend and never could be R*****'s girlfriend!! instead being R*****'s girlfriend, maybe now I'm asun's boyfriend.. IF ...

*sighs*

how much our lives dependent of "if"?

if I did this.. I wouldn't be like this
if I did that.. I wouldn't be like that

such things like that, sounds really regretting your life now, for me..

and now, I shouldn't regret it.. I'm happy, and enjoying my life now. and maybe I should say thanks to asun, if he didn't break my heart ( okay he didn't, but his act showed me that I had no hope so I gave up ) I wouldn't do RP, and wouldn't meet R*****..

so yeah, I never want to change my past. what I have to change is my future :]

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♥ I miss you so much R***** ;______;

so..

2008-04-30T22:33:00.001+07:00

another medicines again __ __;;

laughs bitterly

2008-04-30T22:20:00.002+07:00

couldn't say how come my legs could be like this in english cause someone important shouldn't read it. so I wrote in Indonesia ;]

sebenernya ini gara2 lulur temulawak sii xD;;; cumanan guenya aja yang lebay biar ayank gue panik *minta digaplok*

jadi koneng gitu ye ;___;

kaga ilang tuh. ampe hari ini juga masih aja koneng.. kaga cuman di kaki, tapi juga ketek sama sikut gue... ih sialan itu temulawak >_>;;;

hurt

2008-04-29T09:38:00.001+07:00

I got my monthly period today -___-;; same with anchi

gets dizzy... stomachache as well.. feels tired so bad.. and others..

grr.. I hate this day x_X

barbie pink _

2008-04-28T23:11:00.003+07:00

see the barbie pink one? I ordered it to Dark several days ago ;D
it's expensive enough for me but because I like the color ♥ so I ignored the price ( after thought about it for a month ) xDD

wish it will suit to me *_*

haha, why recently I often use pink? lol is it because I'm in love? *laughs*

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missing my boyfriend ♥ T_T

☆せいら ちゃっヾ(≧∇≦*)〃☆